I am kaitco

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A new idea Monday, November 28, 2011

Filed under: Writing — kaitco @ 12:27 am
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I think I’m getting sick of writing this novel or even thinking about it anymore. I yearn so much to write other things that I’m starting to think of insane, unpublishable things to write. Anne is totally publishable, so I’m still writing notes ad nauseum regarding that, but now, after going through virtually the entire Urkel series, I’m thinking of writing a series of short stories as if they were ongoing episodes picking up after the show got cancelled. I’m just a sucker for great characters and I’m sad to see them left so unloved and mismanaged.

I’ve already started a separate note for these stories in AwesomeNote, so there’s a huge chance they’ll get written, but in thinking about these little stories, I realized tonight that I’d better start writing more now since, at the rate I’m going, I may not live long enough to see all these stories come to light.


The Great Nostalgiatic Sea Sunday, November 27, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:26 am

I went to church today, but I didn’t feel as good as I normally do when I leave my house of worship. I just feel so bad when I’m of the opinion that I could have preached a better sermon than the one I’d just heard. It’s not a good feeling.

The rest of the day has been spent plowing through these Urkel episodes as I swim in the sea of nostalgia. Now, that I’m on the last season, I think the show got shafted since this season was miles better than its predecessor. No use in complaining now I suppose since I’d stop watching around age 11 and helped contribute to its demise. Oh well…it’s just interesting to watch these episodes and see how much they shaped my childhood, thus shaping me into the person I am today.


More bad news Saturday, November 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 11:53 pm

I’m so tired of being right all the time.

I suppose it wouldn’t bother me so much except that I’m often pessimistic and I’m right about bad things happening.

I don’t know what bothers me more; that I knew the workplace bull was indeed BS or that I am now the one forced to deliver the even worse news to my direct reports.

Oh well…

I can now understand, however, why a previous boss of mine used to remind us, “Be thankful you have a job.”


Wouldn’t it be cool if…

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:24 am

I wrote a bit of Damen today, but I wrote a LOT about Anne. I was thisssssss close (true to scale) to actually moving it into it’s own Word doc, but I kept it in AwesomeNote for now. I’ve realized in the past few months that I my ideas are starting to follow a specific path.

First, I think of it by saying, “Wouldn’t it be cool if…” and then write down that idea somewhere. When I was a kid, it was on pink and purple post-its and then random slips of paper that I would find. Nowadays, I slip the idea into AwesomeNote and keep on moving. The beauty of having my ideas on my iPhone is that wherever I am, I can capture one of those “Wouldn’t it be cool if…” moments and then add onto them as I continue to review my ideas. Anne is now a behemoth of a note and it’s almost time to move it along in the progression since the next step in the path to becoming a book is moving from notepaper/app to a full MS Word doc. From there I move the million ideas into some kind of order and craft a plot from there and the rest is just a warped part of my life I’ve managed to dig for myself in the last decade.


Just watching Friday, November 25, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:24 am

I love days when I accomplish absolutely nothing. That in itself, in this multi-tasking society, is truly an accomplishment. I think the only real thing I can say I did other than support basic bodily functions is continue watching these Family Matters episodes. I think if I just keep watching them and see how the series ended, I’ll have achieved something in that.


Another b-day Thursday, November 24, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:23 am

We celebrated my grandmother’s 82nd birthday today…and also Thanksgiving. If I’m thankful for anything at all today, it’s that we all lived to see her turn 82.

I love spending time with my family. Despite the threats of being left to walk home from dinner for my political views, we always have a great time as we all age together.


I wrote some Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:23 am

I wrote more today than I have in a long while. I think, perhaps, that’s the reason I’ve been feeling so down the past few weeks. My writing seems to have stalled and I’m not sure what’s needed to kick myself into gear other than my deep disappointment with first-job, but that disenchantment leads to nothing but depression and I can’t write when I’m depressed. Not prose fiction, anyway. Maybe some long mournful poetry, but nothing that I actually plan to publish one day.

Maybe that’s what I need; just spend a day writing out lame poetry for a bit and that will bring me out of this low.


Stress and Hope Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:22 am

Nothing has occurred in the last week to give me hope that things are about to change. I’m not sure what’s…No, I’m completely sure of what’s causing some of this distress. I feel as if I’m so close to something special, but I just can’t seem to get myself far enough into gear to actually accomplish anything. Perhaps…I can just look into the little things and take a sense of accomplishment from those things.

For example, whenever I get “into” something I’m watching, I usually lose interest fairly quickly. I’ve yet to watch any little show I’ve added to my collection all the way through; I’ve started Roseanne, Ally McBeal, Wonder Years and Coupling on Netflix, for example, and intended to get through all the seasons and episodes, but failed each time, usually somewhere in the first or second season, except for Coupling because British shows only have four or five episodes for any show, so it’s far easier to get through a season there…though, it says little about me that I’ve still not finished the show…

I think perhaps, if I can get the garbage disposal fixed and then finish watching these Urkel episodes and feel some accomplishment from that.


Lack of accomplishment Monday, November 21, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:21 am

If I start listing all the things that I could have got accomplished today, I’ll grow even more depressed. It’s getting to the point that I have so many things stacked up in front of me that I can’t really see a way out of the mess anymore. So all I really want to do is watch whatever show is tickling my fancy at the moment (for now it’s Family Matters) or just play Rock Band for hours on end.

It’s a little disconcerting, but all I can really say is that I’m incredibly thankful for a such a shortened week for first-job.


Nothing to say Friday, November 18, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — kaitco @ 12:20 am

I haven’t really got much to say about today except that I’m terribly frustrated with every aspect of my life right now. To add to that frustration, I don’t know really how to get out of it.


I’ve sat in my chair for close to thirty minutes in the midst of writing this and some reflection (and a little help from my mother) has given me some hope. Some hope that first-job will not feel as if it is ripping out my soul and driving into the dirt every day I leave there. I think that’s all I really need at this point is just a little hope.


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