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Viva La Gloria! Monday, June 20, 2011

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by Green Day ~ 21st Century Breakdown

I didn’t do much this weekend. I didn’t play much Rock Band, I didn’t finish the chapter, I didn’t go to church and I didn’t go to my piano lesson…like a punk and failure.

Despite being in a sour mood, I managed to do a fair bit writing tonight and wrote 603 words (and she nodded. “Yeah. That’d be nice), though I still didn’t finish the scene that now feels like it’s been dragging on for ages at this point.

I don’t know what I’ll do for the rest of the night as I’m in the mood for nothing but staring at a blank wall and trying not to think of all the talent I waste by doing nothing. The best thing of all is I’ve somehow got to muster the drive to go to first-job tomorrow…


The Climb Friday, June 17, 2011

by No Doubt ~ Tragic Kingdom

I hate nights when I have to work for someone else. The day never drags as long as when I know I’ve got stay even longer than I normally would. On a Friday, especially, I don’t want to be there half the time and to stay at first-job until close and then shooing out those who don’t seem to want to go home on a Friday evening is most soul-sucking aspect of my week. That said, Season Eight of Frasier has arrived today, so I know I’ll perk up in just a bit.

Speaking of Netflix, as much as I adore them, they’ve got an angry call coming their way. I order my Netflix queue so that I receive a season of a show and a movie, five discs total, each time I get something in the mail. For the past four of five rounds, they’ve been skipping that last disc in the series and sending me the next movie in the queue. Then I later get an apologetic e-mail stating that my intended disc wasn’t available and would arrive a few days later. It’s great that they have the courtesy to send me an extra disc while I’m waiting for the one I wanted, but it’s absolutely irritating when it comes to a show that likes to end the series on a cliffhanger. I knew what was coming at the end of Frasier seventh season, so I didn’t even open the envelopes until the last disc arrived because I knew I’d be pulling out my own hair in frustration that I couldn’t watch the last three or four episodes of the season for another day or two.

Speaking of companies I both love and loathe, Harmonix have got quite the racket going and I’ve managed to get sucked into the act of checking the Rock Band site daily and growing wild with anticipation at the thought of new DLC for Rock Band. I only want three of the next six songs coming and they’re not even my favorite music, but I can’t think of anything else I want more in life at the moment. How did this happen?? Two months ago, I would have scoffed loudly at the idea of paying 2 dollars for songs I already owned, but now I’m fervently awaiting the moment when I can readily hand my funds to Micro$oft and Harmonix. It’s a good thing I fear getting kicked off Xbox Live too much to research pirating RB songs because honestly…

I went into another tangent while writing tonight, though I think this one may make the cut. In a story that supposed to take place between end of August 2007 and end of May 2008, I’m up to end of November 07 and I’m a good 100K words into it already. I’ve also got some rather lengthy side stories to lead in and then uncover between now and the end which means this thing will be close to Flight length before all is said and done. How I’ll ever wrangle my wordiness I’ll never know, but tonight’s deviation is a good piece of foreshadowing for a character who life I keep ending and bring back with each edit.

I’m not sure what I’m trying to say about Amber, but she, like Brian and Zach and Andy, has been a part of the story since close to its inception and, while I’m not entirely sure she does much more than add some melodrama to the story, I still enjoy writing her. Amber’s personality is like the antithesis of myself; lacking any sense of self-esteem and obsessed with what she’ll never be. Damen mentions when he first sees her that she’d be almost pretty if she didn’t work so hard to look like Jessie, but since she does, to the point of bleached hair and blue contacts, it manages to make her very ugly, which is why it’s important to paint her as not so much a mean or horrible person like Jessie, but just a sad and confused young girl.

Learning from my mistakes with Jonathan Halloway in Flight, if I want my audience to feel a certain way about a character, I’ve got to manipulate it early so that when they do some daft things, said actions will be the result of the stress I’ve put on the character rather than just the same old thing. It’s a bit of a side-track at this juncture in the novel, but I think I’ve given her just enough depth to make my reader really consider her.

I wrote exactly 300 words (to Aunt Jackie watching the others play football) tonight <> and I’m in the mood to write more, but I’ve got new hobbies and TV calling. I will say this, however. Even though it was less than 5 minutes total, I did play the piano for a bit earlier this morning. It wasn’t enough for a full practice, but enough to get my mind working the right way again.


Come Away With Me Thursday, June 9, 2011

by Norah Jones ~ Come Away With Me

Well, the vacation is almost over and I’m already counting down the days when I can take another span of time for just myself. Spending these last few days just playing Rock Band, playing piano and writing has been just so relaxing. I’ve even lost a little weight. I don’t know what I’ll do to keep the stress at bay once I go back to first-job, but with less than 36 hours remaining before I’m due to appear there again, I’m already being weighed down with a little bit of dread.

I’d like to think that tomorrow will be the most productive of all these days, but I know I’m wrong. I’ll probably do a little laundry, but since Season 7 of Frasier will be coming tomorrow (and, if memory serves, it’s the season where Daphne discovers how Niles feels about her), much of the day will be spent watching Frasier in between bouts of Rock Band.

Speaking of my favorite game, I hit a wall this afternoon that almost turned me off of gaming altogether. I’ve recently become infatuated with the idea of Xbox achievements to the point where I think I’m no longer going to buy Wii games since I can’t must the desire to play them when there are no achievements to earn. I mean, I could play the games just out of the fun of playing them, but really…

Today, while trying to gain the “Big in NYC” achievement for Rock Band 1, I realized that I’d have to master a song on Hard that happened to be the one song that caused me to give up on completing the Hard tour in solo mode. I was just so discouraged by my failure and the thought that I would need to spend real effort at mastering this song to get any other achievements that I wanted to give up on all the games I’d bought and all the time and money I’d put into them. Instead of quitting, however, I strengthened my resolve and have decided that, like with every other Rock Band Everest I’ve come across, this too shall pass. I’ll beat “Flirting With Disaster” eventually, in much the same way I spent hours trying to beat the Expert tour for vocals: days and days and days of failure until the glorious moment finally shined.

What this showed me, however, was that I really enjoy just playing through songs in a simple setlist which is why I spent the past 5 hours creating and customizing characters for Rock Band 3, creating my band, syncing with the RB website, connecting that with Facebook, designing a band emblem, creating a Green Day “Faves” playlist for RB3 and then playing through said playlist. Aside from that, I’m going to start playing through the RB2 achievements and also Lego Rock Band so that my gamerscore can at least increase a bit as I delve further into my newest hobby.

The most important thing that separates Rock Band from other games for me is the ability to put down the game so that I can write. True, I just left RB3 on the main screen while I went upstairs to write, but the point is that I did squeeze out some time to write. Perhaps not as much as I could have, had I not spent the entire day playing Rock Band, but still…I’m on vacation. 🙂

I wrote 421 words tonight (just kept pulling her right back out of the gutter again) and, like I knew would happen eventually, Grandpa Jack and Grandma Lucy are coming into focus as I continue the chapter and bring Aunt Jackie’s character to centre stage. The key with Aunt Jackie, though, will be to still soften her and make her likeable again before Damen leaves LA. I can’t very well leave her sounding like some raving drunk who is clearly still mourning the loss of her older brother.

Perhaps, I really will “waste” tomorrow as well. I’ve got a ton of writing I’d like to complete on top of the mountain of other things I’d like to do and have got Sunday and Monday to do things as well…

Oh, well. I’ll mull over the depths of my procrastination as I continue playing Rock Band and time will tell the rest.


Restless Heart Syndrome Wednesday, June 1, 2011

by Green Day ~ 21st Century Breakdown

I’ve not been this sleepy so “early” in the night in quite a while, so this will be quick.

I’ve got to find a better way to manage bad news and a better way to manage stress. If it means that I come home and write immediately or play Rock Band until I forget about the bad things or watch some of my favorite Frasier episodes until I can’t focus on anything else…then so be it.

On the positive side, I managed to accomplish my June goal for the first day of the month. I did spend about five minutes playing scales with my eyes closed as I tried to wake up myself, when I clearly needed more sleep. Hopefully, tomorrow will fair well as I’ve got to be up far earlier in the morning for first-job….blargh…

I wrote 367 words tonight (unintentionally appropriate concern about his departure) and I’m a little ridiculously obsessed with Green Day’s music for the moment. This too will pass, but until then I’ll keep fine tuning my new playlist as I play this post’s title song and Little Girl over and over and over again, occasionally playing Peacemaker to liven up things…


Are We the Waiting? Monday, May 30, 2011

by Green Day ~ American Idiot

My mind’s a little rattled lately given that I’ve watched nothing but Frasier for Lord knows how many weeks now and have listened to little else outside of Green Day for the past couple weeks as I’ve played through their Rock Band as if my life depended on it. Between watching all of Frasier Season 4 and playing through several more achievements on Green Day Rock Band, I’m quite surprised I managed to write anything at all today, considering that I’ve done nothing at all productive the entire day weekend.

I’ve got an amazing amount of first-job work still left to do tonight and I’m starting to get a little tired and I’m really not in the mood to do any of it and I’m kind of depressing myself just thinking about it further, but alas, such is life.

It is, however, the end of the month which means it’s time again for me to set some realistic goal to which I can strive to attain for the month, thus taking another a step towards becoming a better person. I’ve successfully written in this blog every day for the past 5 months and I’ve written my novel every day for the past 4 months, but I’ve not managed to adhere to any new goals since then.

I think, taking a page from my old LiveJournal, that I’m going to place a new importance on music. If I can spend an entire day playing Rock Band, I can at least find 15 minutes in a day to play the piano, especially now that I’m paying for lessons.

Under the same guise that got me to stop spending hours of my life on random Internet forums (every word written on a forum is one word not written in my novel), I’m going to fall back to the old edict of every song played in Rock Band is song I’m not practicing the piano. I know I probably won’t stop playing Rock Band the way I stopped forum-hopping cold turkey, but I will at least be conscious of the fact that if I can play Rock Band, I should also play the piano.

I wrote 938 words tonight (back home. As he passed). I could have written more, but with all my neglected first-job work looming overhead, I’m just not in the right mindset to do anything more this evening. Perhaps tomorrow will bring some of the peace for which I yearn so greatly. Perhaps…


Everlong Thursday, May 19, 2011

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by Foo Fighters ~ Foo Fighters: Greatest Hits/The Colour and the Shape

It occurred to me this evening that it’s taken a ridiculous amount of time for me to finish what I had called Chapter 15 and I then took a look a the content and word count of the last chapter and realized that I had enough to fill at least two long chapters if not almost 4 normal-sized ones. I’ve since broken Chapter 15 into two chapters (15 – Confessions and 16 – Dana)

Once again, I’ve not got a whole lot to say about today and since I’ve got the remainder of Frasier’s Season 3 awaiting me, I know there’s not a lot of chance that inspiration will strike for the rest of the night.

I wrote 265 words (and still remained that morning) and started Chapter 17 instead of 16. With each completed chapter, this book just grows and grows to the point that I know it’s going to get painful to cut in the end, but I’ll just worry about that moment when it comes.


Ask Me Anything Monday, May 2, 2011

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by The Strokes ~ First Impressions of Earth

As I opened this post, the title song was playing and the specific words “I’ve got nothing to say.” are quite fitting for how I feel about this post.

My sleep pattern is completely off kilter now that I’ve been getting up early in the morning, to the point that I can no longer stay and do what I really ought to do. Tonight, I simply put myself to bed for about an hour since it was apparent that nothing else was going to happen tonight unless I got some kind of nap.

Anyway, I wrote 556 words tonight (As long as you don’t cry wolf on me) and I didn’t really want to stop, but this post is late as it is and I knew I didn’t have much else to say tonight…


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